So, aaj aap sab logoan ki dua'aun say main apna table-tennis match haaaaaaar gai. I won my semi-final, but lost the final match. It was great fun playing the final. My opponent is a very experienced player. We were playing tick-tock, tick-tock, and then a big smash...wow! And she finally won the match__ Still, I will recieve a silver medal. Again. Last year also I got a silver medal. Does that mean I haven't improved?!? No. Those were the the double matches and this time I played single, which I think, is difficult.
In my writings you'll always find news about songs. Well, after sooo many days (better say, weeks), I heard the song "aadat" by jal. It was nice to hear that. Nice, soft and slow (of my type..). And also Im listening to some old Indian songs. Just like "kehna hee kia" of bombay.
O yeah, Faysal, I've seen that movie "kal ho na ho". It was good.
Aray haan, I just remember, my father is planning to buy a table-tennis table. wow! I'm forcing him to buy it asap.
These days I'm working on a poem. But it doesn't seem to me that it will end up in a "poem". I mean, I think that I should write a story because I have more words, if I make a story out of it. Do you wanna read another of my poems? If not, then close your eyes right now, start counting, scroll down. Keep on scrolling down until you reach 5. then open your eyes and you'll be at the concluding paragraph pf my blog.
So, if you want to read it, then here it goes.

_________Don't Look Into My Eyes___________

Don't look into my eyes,
For these glassy eyes are very deep.
The depth will sweep you away,
And in the ocean of my memories, you'll seep.

Don't look into my eyes,
For they search rays of hope.
And if you peer into them,
I may lose this precious rope.

Don't look into my eyes,
Or you'll discover my erratic life.
You'll discover my painful sufferings,
And those deep bruises caused by my sacrifice.

Don't look into my eyes,
Or the tears will surely flow.
There are things that can't be said,
The eyes can't help, but show.

Don't look into my eyes,
For you won't find anything.
These empty eyes are just there,
Anxiously waiting for something.

Kaisi thee? If you like it then mail me at
umema_16@hotmail.com
And if you dont like then, dont waste your time in mailing!
well, tahts all for today....getting busy as time is passing by..
bye
all

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kia likhoun? can't think of anything. Dinky Mind ain't workin'. oopsss! waqai kuch samajh nahin aa raha kay kia likhoun.
o yeah, I remember. I have just completed a painting. It has three ice cubes in it, vertically made. Bas itni achi nahin bani, magar, shayad agar duur say daikhain to lagay kay waqai ice cubes hain (agar na lagay to abstract art hay !!! ;) )
So, today i heard almost all songs of "huqa pani". I mean half of side A and half of side B. And yeah, I said I'll comment on the songs once I listen to them. And one thing I noticed was that in all songs, his voice is totally changed! Never heard any singer like that. And now watching "with arms wide open". Uff..its such a good song.
today was my brother's birthday. Aray, I forgot, aaj zoixxx ki bhee birthday ki...O My God, I didn't call her. I'm becoming soo careless these days. Sab batain bhool jaati houn! God grant me piece and peace of mind!
So, today I went to Park Tower for some shopping. There I met my Economics teacher, who taught me in O Levels, Miss Uzma Laddakwala (shayad yehi naam hay). There she asked me my grades. I told her that I've got a big B in economics, at 88 %...urgh! She told me that Sarah has got an A. The only person of our batch who got an A. Sarah Afridi_ She is a real genius. She got 7 A* at GCSE, and now an A in GCE. Well, I dont know what she has got in Add Math. I hope an A. Now she'll definately get admission in Grammar.
After shopping, I went to The Dip Shop. uff...wahan ice cream itni heavy ho gai. Bas ab to do din khaanay ki chhutti ! But my parents won't let me do that. Aaj hee khitab mil gaya hay kuch ziada hee elegant honay ka. "seekh Silai". That's what my father has said to me
:( So these days my diet is revolving around CHEESE only; cream cheese, cheese triangles, cheese sqaures, cheese everything. Mujhay to lagta hay itni cheese kha kha ker main aik din "ajeeb cheese" ban jaoon gee.
Well, that's for today. kal tak kay liay ijazat dijiyay
Allah Hafiz, aur
Shab Bakhair!

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ahh..sitting with my heavy eyelids, I'm trying my best to post something over here. Well, my account expired few days back, so, now I'm here to check all my stuff. my mailbox is just filled with mails (stupid answer). What I'm trying to say is that it is just flooded with mails from all my cousins and friends...uff...have to reply them also. Today is (better say "was", cuz i usually come online at night) Friday. On Fridays, I normally have 4 hour consecutive classes, with a tiny break of 15 mins. (a big relief for all of us). But in today's break I had a table-tennis single's match, which will now be played on Monday. Urgh...Hate it. Actually, today my opponent was in no mood of a match, and on Monday I wouldn't be (hahaha). Well my battery is recharging now, as I'm listening to some good tracks, just like "have you ever" by Katelyn Tarver. It is suchhhh a nice song. Do listen to it.
Hey today my sis brought Ali Zafar's album, Huqqa Paani. I have just heard two songs of that album. Have to listen rest of the songs. My sis says all are good and different. I'll comment only when I'll hear 'em. Right now I'm listening to El Amor De Mi Vida by Ricky Martin...Although I dont understand a word of this song but still I like it, such a nice, soft, slow song. And you know what, whenevr I'm gloomy, I just play this song, and rest my head on my table, close my eyes and enjoy this 4 minute, un-understanding song (i hope you understand what I mean when I say un-understanding). Simply love it! And yeah, listen to this song "Stop living the lie" by David Sneddon. O God, its such a niceeee song. And I really love those lines.
"She stands alone at a place where no-one knows her name,
She catches them staring, they turn around and vanish the frame,
And she's nursing her head and her pride,
She died long ago deep down inside.
Who is going to save her?
Nobody wants to know her."
wow wow wow, such a nice song, isn't it?
right now somebody has sent me "nothing is gonna change my love for you" by Glen Mederos. Tomorrow I'll tell you about this song_ my comments! hehe...Waisay to acha lag raha, "of my type" SLOW and Soft...khair, forget about this stuff.
O, I haven't visited anybody's blog today. So, I'm kind of feeling bored today.
umm..let me think of something new and interesting...right now I'm conversing with famma...the one who has named me OLPM (well, fadi mama, nobody knows the meaning of OLPM. A secret between us only...hehe... ).
Nothing new happened today at college,oo yeah, I had an argument with my Economics teacher. Just dont ask, he ate my head by explaining me a totally different thing, and I ate his by arguing that what he is saying is from no angle correct. We argued for about 30 mins, and then he finally said:
"Ok beta, cross this statement. It's not correct".
He still dint say what I said was correct! toba hay...then we started doing MCQs. Us main bhee main nay un ka sar khaa lia kay mujhay sahi tarah samjhaiiin. I just dont know whether my mind was blocked or either he was unable to explain the choices to me correctly. khair...
O yeah, I remember. Did I tell you that i lost my locker's key on tuesday? well, if I dint then I must tell you that I've found it again....Ahhh...Im so relieved cuz my fee slip was in the book which was in my locker. Thankyou Ahse for helping me. I was really tired of searching that tiny, keychainless key of mine at home. I searched every nook and corner of my house. At one moment a stupid idea crossed my mind. I always lick my key like a lollypop (sounds awful...i know) so, have I taken it inside? uff...so you can well imagine, my mind really stopped working at that time. And after that I decided to glue my key with a keychain much bigger than my own size, so I never lose it again! At first I wasnt worried about my key, but when my father bacame twice as worried as I was, then I started thinking of searching it . I mean, I didn't stop searching but his sentences like "o beta, you've lost your keys, now what will happen? how will you get your books back? ". And all those worried and caring looks would compel me to go upstairs again, and search for my lost key. But ahh...I'm so relieved now. So, as soon as I entered the house, I just picked out a keychain and chained my key.
aray kuch pata hay? 3 bajj chukay hain. Mujhay to khair abhi pata laga. acha janab, bas ab to sochtay huay hee aankhain bund honay lagtee hain kay apna soya hua wujood kaisay main kamray tak lay ker jaoon gee...nahinnnnn!!!!
zzZZzzZZzzZZ
Wish me goodluck, tomorrow is PTM (parent-teacher meeting). letsee kia hota hay. waisay to mera result iss dafa kaafi acha aay hay,..phir bhee...
wasiay tomorrow's saturday...abhi to nahin sona chahiyay mujhay...magar phir bhee so jaati houn... apni energy ki bachat ho gee.

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hellloo,
so today my college reopened, after a very looong week (because I missed all my friends so much). But today I enjoyed a lot. I played table-tennis after a month (because in ramazan, we wouldn't get time for our matches). And guess what, I played 5 double matches and won ALL...wow... my partner was an A-2 student, who's a great player (this doesnt mean that only because of his efforts we were victorious...I also play well, rather good. If you don't believe, come and play with me ;) ) And the oppenents were all my class-mates, and oh, one was of A-2. To sum it up, I enjoyed a lot.
In the morning, I took my first class of accounting of one hour (without a calc! O my God, when will I buy a new one?!?). Then I studies Business Management with the same teacher, for another one hour. Then I had my economics class, but due to a change in timetable, we studied General Paper (everybody takes GP). Then we had a 45-minute break in which I finished 2 packs of Real Chips (yummm). And after that I went for table tennis. Then I attended my Economics class from 11:45-12:45. And then, from 12:45 - 13:45, I enjoyed with my mates, cuz all of them had a free class...
So that was my day at college.
O yeah, something unusal happened today_nobody came to our house, neither did we go to meet anybody...so, you can say, I had a real relaxing day. Ahhh!!!
A few minutes back, Fadi mama (Ahmed Fuad Siddiqi) came online. We had a great chat, and he's going to help me to bring further fruitful changes in this boring blog of mine...Thankyou very much. And then I talked to him about my poem "restless soul", which I want to submit on www.poetry.com (search me by the name of "Umema Siddiqui"..remember ...iqui). I have submitted a poem over there by the title of "the temptation" ( a chidish poem written by me when i was in grade 8th). I submitted this poem some 2 years back, i guess, but now Pakistan is not in the country's list....so annoying! So, I talked to fadi mama, took his address (of USA) and submitted my poem...Thankyou again mama.
O my God, I just forgot, I have to complete my GP assignment..nahiiiinnnn...I thought there's nothing to do today, so I started working on a poem. But now, I have to go....O Lord! why does this happen to me only?? Probably because I own a Dinky Mind.
And you know what, my mocks will start right after a month... and I think I shouldn't go far, but my assessments are starting after 6 days....nahiiiinnnn...I sometimes wonder is it some sort of Eidi given to us by our teachers or what? Assessments right after our vacations, especially Eid vacations, doesnt mean that we were studying during those times, after all, enjoyment is also something!
Well, right now Im listening to, infact, watching a song "With Arms Wide Open" by Creed. Its a good song. I like slow songs, only when when Im feeling gloomy. And when Im ecstatic, I listen to all songs, all the fast tracks that I have with me.
Now, I think its late. I better move to my writing table for some work.
oo bye...

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ufff...just dont ask how i spent my day...It was so, O my God, exhauting....people coming to visit you and you are going to attend lunches and dinners on sundays...
In the afternoon, some family friends came to our place..It was very nice talking with all of 'em..Then, at about 8 pm, we went to our nani (maternal grand mother's) place. Over there, we enjoyed a lot. And then I went into her room, and picked up a book by the name of "A Study Of Bible". I opened it and started reading it. I read only a few pages when my parents asked me to get into the car, cuz it was late (something around 11:30 or...I don't remember exactly). So, now I'm planning to read it more whenever I get a chance of visiting her again. O yeah, today I wanted my ears to be pierced, but then I totally forgot about it. And now, Im simply scolding myself, because I really really really wanted my ears to be pierced. But you know, Every thing Has Got A Place In Time so now, it's all right.
O MY GOD! mujhay to yaad hee nahin raha, tomorrow Ive to go to college also....ufff...nahiiinnnn...It's 1:53 right now, when will I change? When will I sleep? and when will I wake up??? This is soooo bad. Im still glued to the chair. I really need to get up and sleep.
will tell you stories about tomorrow
till then
b'bye

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wanna read something rhyming?
a poem, which i wrote when i was totally tired of studying. it was something 2 or 3 at night ( my dinky mind works at night only)... so I took out my Diary Of Verses, and started scribbling my thoughts. Actually, it all comes to my mind when I read a pile of books and want to pour out my thoughts onto a paper, in a rhyming manner.
I dont think Im a good poet, because when I view other people's poetry, I find my verses to be of kinder-garten standard. All of my poems are in English, because, I think, in this way, I can improve my vocab. (really needs to be improved).
Aur mazay ki baat bataoon, whenever i start writing a poem, I feel like I'm a boy and writing for a girl...hahaha...because you can write a lot on girls...
Well, here it goes:
the title is

Restless Soul

My heart is too full for words;
My feelings make it difficult for me to speak.
I'm running after my shadow;
The thirst for your love has made me a complete freak!

Sitting beside the graveyard of my hopes,
Those cloudy memories still revolve around my head.
I remember those moments I spent with you,
But then you left me__I'm all alone and dead!

I never dreamt of getting this reward from you,
Have I ever gave you any harm or sorrow?
But you made it happen so soon,
I wish, I would have never prayed for a tomorrow...

Do you realise, you're putting me through my paces?
And now you see me lying helpless.
Behold! I'm breaking into pieces,
Your lips take a curve and you smile at my restlessness...

Ah...This is so heart-aching,
I wish, I could vociferate at your unjust behavior.
Your unfair attitude has fatigued my nerves,
I'm totally vexed at my failure!

I'm growing despondent in the promises of life,
Want to retroject myself to the same joyous track.
Don't push me in this agony-filled world,
Please, show some clemency and come back...

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hey all.
so today I'm here...haha...well, today, again, was a very tiring day...'cuz you know it's still eid (although 4th day... still loads of people to meet..whoosh!). Many people came to our house and we also went to meet a couple of people... It was kind of nice, I enjoyed.
well, now let me think of something new...ummm...no news today, i guess. O yeah, tomorrow is Sunday, and then Monday, and I'll meet my mates on Monday..yahoooooo!!!! there'll be fun! But right now I'm missing my greatest friend-Barry (Faryal/Amal...loads of other names)....yaar, I'm simply dying to meet her.
Yesterday, I completed my Accounts chapter of Manufacturing Accounting. 7 questions_ a big deal. But it was very interesting. And guess what, I did it without a calculator..hahaha..Accounts without a calculator. Actually, I've lost it at college some weeks ago, and I haven't bought a new one. So, sometimes, when I am really really frustrated after using the calc. of my mobile, I start using my brain (Dinky Mind). So, you can say, I've done all my assignment without a calculator. You can well imagine the headache caused when you use mobile's calculator... all that tick-tick-tick sound is ufff...so annoying.
I guess this is for today.
Bye

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Hey everybody....
Here I am with something new (for me, atleast). And I'd like to thank fadi mama and biya for opening the doors of this new world to me...Thankyou very much.
Well, right now, I can't think of anything 'cuz I'm really very exhausted and sleepy (as always) and want to curl up in my cozy bed (ahhhh...). It was the third day of Eid and soooo many people came to our place, and for a moment it seemed to me as if I'm not in my own home, but in a restaurant, acting as a waitress, serving people, and yeah, taking care of those most-annoying kids.uffff! But my mum says "It's part of your life!" (annoying part, I must say)
and also "the prep period"....
ah..zzZZzzZZ....I think I must go and sleep because it's ...no way!!...whoops...2:09 am.....nahiiiiiinnnn....
Well take care everybody.
Good bye,
Have a wonderful day
ZZzzZZzzZZzz

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