My feelings at this hour:

Uffff.......exams ki itni tension nahi hoti jitni result ki hoti hay! Wo bhee CIE results to taubaaaaa....neend ura daitay hain. Allah kisi ko aisa waqt na dikhai. Ameen. *whispers* this shows I havent slept for the past 4 nights. But, today I am gonna sleep for minimum 12 hours - only if my Mommese let me sleep. Ahhhhh.....itna sukoon milta hay na jab yeh pata lag jai kay aap kay 'Aamaal naamay' main kia likha hua hay.


English side:

Thankyou very much my sweet, smart buddies for praying for my disturbing and disappointing results! Now, you don't need to know that! And please don't even ask me. Don't even try to blackmail me to speak of it! Now, the result is here....No tension, no worries....I am a free bird again. Really, I am not sad for the stupid and shocking grades that Ive got, but I am happy that I have Alhamdolillah cleared all papers. I look at my senior. I once used to teach her. She and I gave the same courses, but she has flunked. I remember,. after the papers, she would say that the paper was like a 'thanda halwa' and stuff like that. She appeared for the second time (with me) and what has she got. I am not making fun of her. But, I still remember those moments when I would cry all night and pray to Allah for my grades. Alhamdolillah, I have got very better grades than others. I am happy. Although, Mommese was shocked when I told her, but still she hugged me on realising that I have done my accelerated A Level. I took my major 4 courses, both AS and A Level stuff in one go! I know that's not something worth praising, but I know how much effort I have made in getting through these A Level. Really, when you start your A Ls, you are always reminded of your 'halwa' O' Level times.
I'm glad I've cleared. I was really worried about my Accounting P 2, cuz in that paper, I hardly wrote something correct! Honestly, I would have nightamares of Awful Accounting. But, I'm not gonna leave Accounting and Economics. If I get a chance to do bi-majors, I'd prefer these courses. Accounting is something which I admire, and Economics is something I love!

Tension-free Dinky Mind waves cheerio now!
*notice the time!!! I'm a nocturnal free bird now* hehehe

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Caution: All crap written below. Dont forget you have the option of closing this window.

Breaking news!
Slept at 5:15 am, and got up at 9:15 am today! Never ever in my life have I slept this little. I had 7-hour sleep in the past two days! Ohhhhh...there was once a time, when 7-hour sleep would be termed as my nap! Ohhhhh....my glorious past...cannot forget it!

I wasn't dissatisfied over my 4-hour sleep today, because today was 25th Jan. Today, when I had to experience two totally different situations...one is of happiness, and the other is of melancholy. I did not know that the opposite news will go in the same direction and will become one by evening. At about quarter to eleven in the morning, I came across the gloomy news! My colourful world turned to grey. I was dead deep down inside. Suddenly tears floated in my eyes, and within a second or two, those desperate tears finally came out of my eyes and rolled down my cheeks. I was kind of electrocuted! But then, there were people around me to console; who were, I know, greatly disappointed, but still consoled me! They said, I am crying for nothing good. They said its just okay. They said life has got ups and downs, and these days you are experiencing your 'downs'. I wanted to run out in the rain and cry as much as I could. I wanted to cry like those clouds up above me. Those clouds were like me....grey, gloomy, and crying like me! At that time, I was reminded of those lines from 'Father and Son'
'And all the times that I cried,
keeping all the things I knew inside
It's hard but it's harder to ignore it.
If they were right, I'd agree
But its them you know not me
Now there's a way, and I know
That I have to go away.
I know, I have to go away.'

Probably, whatever I am saying is just totally incomprehendable, but really, its hard to ignore it!
I tried to forget it, tried to make my day normal again. I never wanted to show my teary face to the people around me. So, I started thinking of other things. It helped me, but not much, as in the evening, I came to know that today's good news has turned into a bad one. Barry is not coming to Pakistan now! That was more than enough to take me to the heights of ultimate gloom. Because, before this news, I was alive on the feeling that Barry will come and make me happy again.

Now, I am greatly tensed! Don't know what the rising sun of tomorrow will bring me. Shaadi fun has started in our house. Those great events are there to hail me, but then 'Life is a road filled with unpredictable forks and unexpected tomorrows...' These forks; these obstacles are not letting me move an inch forward. They are not letting me to greet those events. The way I am tensed today, at this very moment, is way too unusual. I had never been a tension-friendly girl, so why now, why today only? I know, rather I am sure, someday I'll totally forget about it, and wouldn't even care about it. But what about today? What am I gonna do today? I'm upset! In a real bad mood.

Sorry buddies if I ruined your mood.

*sadly waves* Cheerio.

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Blah no. 1: My new ishtyle.
I dont know why I have adopted this new style. I mean putting different news under their respective headings. I never used to be that particular about things and stuff. At home also, I now put things in an orderly and presentable form. I have changed! Hah!

Blah no. 2: Angry and happy.
I am angry because Barry and I havent talked for more than a month! When I get online, I dont find Barry there. And then I have to wait for hours and hours, but still no signs of her. That day I decided to mail a very anger-filled message to her, but somehow I forgot to do that. Next day, when I was reminded of it, I became angry at myself too. But, my Mommese then declared that Barry is about to come to Pakistan. And guess when? 25th January, 2005! Means day after tomorrow! Upon listening that, my anger wave sloshed away, and I became very happy! Strange transformation in me. I have changed! Hah!

Blah no. 3: 3rd day of Eid and not bad!
On this Eid, I wasn't expecting anything but meat packets, distributed among family and friends. But to my ultimate amazement, we recieved cakes, too. So, today my home wasn't looking like a meat shop only, but it also gave some picture of a cake shop! =) Today, many guests came to our place (something very usual), even kids came, but those kids didn't annoy me much. Rather, I talked to them, and treated them nicely, even though I was having a severe headache. I have changed! Hah!

Blah no. 4: Xak, I miss you!
Talked to Xak for almost an hour today. We talked about all crap stuff. That's what we do, when we call each other. hehe. I don't know why best buddies don't stay with you forever :( I'm sad. Someone said,"You don't realise what you've got until you lose it. And you don't realise what you were missing until it arrives". So Xak, now as you're not here,I miss you very much. I can't wait for the summers to come. You were my only best friend, atleast here in Karachi. *I am reminded of so many quotations these days...My strange memory*. I have changed! Hah!

Blah no. 5: Cheerio everybuddy.
I have NOT changed! Hah-ahaha! *evil grin on my face*

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[confused by this *'Id* thing? Actually, this is how the CIE people wrote in our O'level Islamiat paper. And I wasted my 10 precious minutes to figure out what they meant when they wrote "Explain the significance of 'Id ul Adha"]

'Id Mubarak to all Muslim community. May this 'Id brings happiness and joy to all of you. Ameen. Please remember me in your prayers.

Cheerio!!!!

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Hoa yeah, today I bought Digital Fortress by Dan Brown. I bought this book from my savings, so I am very glad to have it. I have just started reading it and its just superb! Bought this from Liberty Books. Uffff.....when I enter Liberty Books, I feel like spending my whole life there, reading books! I went to the Park Tower outlet. It's way too big, and way too cool. And yeah, there I saw The Da Vinci Code - the one with images and having glossy paper...wow...and the price was also very wow....Rs. 1499. Although, I have read this book, but I want to read this glossy-paper and images one. So, I want 1500 bucks!

[So, Famma you want this book? ;) You can take it away, cuz I know you read books with a good speed. ]

Today, my brother bought chips, and he offered to me, so.....so, I couldn't refuse. Rizq ko inkaar nahi kerna chahiyay naaa....So, I ate them...a ....a ....a lot of them, actually.... Don't stare at me like that. I had to eat them. Can't refuse my brother na!

Cheerio every buddy!

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Assalam-o-Alaikum dear bloggers,
So, after a few days, I am back in BlogLand to post my blah blahs.

Blah no.1 : A Miracle.

"Suffering is everywhere. Don't ever think it isn't. So are miracles. Don't ever think they aren't."

The way I am sitting here, blahing, is a miracle. Why? Because 3-4 days ago, every breath I took, seemed to me my last breath. I was extremely ill. Almost glued to my bed. And I remember there were the nights when I'd cry and just ask for forgiveness. I was scared! Didn't want to die. And now I am here. Back to where I once was. Don't know if it's good for me or not. But one thing I know is 'Whatever happened to me is a Miracle'. Thankyou Allah for giving me one more chance.

Blah no. 2: Don't like chips anymore!

Lol...Wondering am I sane, right? This 'blah' must be as shocking as the Tsunami, but I guess, I now don't like chips anymore. When I eat more, I fall sick. And why do I eat more? Because I am addicted. So, now I have planned to minimise, and then finally get rid of this addiction. I have a cousin who doesn't like chocolates. Not because of pimples, but because she doesn't like it, so she doesn't like it! But, I have never heard of anyone who doesn't like chips. Although, I never want to be one such person, but then I also dont want to be a chips lover. So, am kinda controlling now. *Hah. Joke of the century*

Blah no. 3: I've shrunk!

Oh, another Tsunami-like news! But, then that's true! Pumpkin me has now shrunk to an orange! Big change! I am happy! Atleast, this 'beemari' has resulted in something good! Khee khee khee khee ( my new laughing style)

Blah no. 4: Bells of hells are chiming!

I don't want to publicize this blah. 'Aqalmand kay liay ishara hee kaafi hay'!!!!

Blah no. 5: Cheerio

Cheerio everybuddy!

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Habit no. 1 : I am fine.

Me: Assalam-o-alaikum, how are you?
Papa: Walaikum assalam. I am good, Alhamdolillah, how are you?
Me: I am fine, Alhamdolillah.
*I then cough*
Papa: You okay?
Me: Yeah, I was just having a bit cough, slight fever, series of sneezes, headache, stomach ache, and umm.,..yeah, and my legs are hurting, too. That's it.
Papa: You sure, that's it?
Me: Yah, am cent percent sure!
[ I have a habit of saying 'I am fine' even when I am not. It automatically comes out of my mouth...Can't help it....]

Habit no. 2 : Ssssssssomebody sssstoppp meeeeeeeeee

Yes, please stop me from eating chips. I am getting real fat! And I am serious this time. Earlier, people would just exaggerate when they'd call me Moti. But, now, I am Moti....bitterest truth! I have to start my morning walk...I mean, I have to resume my morning walk. I am not feeling well, still I am stuffing chips into my mouth. Yaar, I can't live without them. Remember "Maybe I am addicted, I am out of control. But you're the drug that keeps me from dying". Lol. My sis and bro's wedding is hardly a month away, and I wonder what am I gonna look like : A Pumpkin? *horrible thought, must brush it off* I need to learn to stop myself. I needa learn patience. Really!
Please pray for me...Right now, I've got a big chipsy pack in my lap, and I am munching non-stop.
Cheerio by Big, Fat, Liar! ;)

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[I have 2 best friends....one is Barry, and the other one is described below]

My best friend is back now. But I am not happy, because this of my friend doesn't make me happy. Really!!! I never like this of my friend, but I still say 'This is my best friend". I actually have to. Yes, a friend who never leaves me alone. A friend who's with me almost all the time; day or night; in or out....yes....almost everywhere! But I don't like these kind of friends - uh, way too chummy! Rather, the word Hate would be better. Yes, I hate this of my friend.
I hate this of my best friend. My eternal partner. My headache...


Yes, I hate you!

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My mind's totally empty now.
Nahi kerna mujhay update....jao yahan say!
cheerio, tata, bye bye, sayonara, au revoir, Allah Hafiz.

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From Actual School Essays

1~He spoke with the wisdom that can only come from experience, like a guy who went blind because he looked at a solar eclipse without one of those boxes with a pinhole in it and now goes around the country speaking at high schools about the dangers of looking at a solar eclipse without one of those boxes with a pinhole in it.
Joseph Romm, Washington

2~She caught your eye like one of those pointy hook latches that used to dangle from screen doors and would fly up whenever you banged the door open again.
Rich Murphy, Fairfax Station

3~The little boat gently drifted across the pond exactly the way a bowling ball wouldn't.
Russell Beland, Springfield

4~McBride fell 12 stories, hitting the pavement like a Hefty Bag filled with vegetable soup.
Paul Sabourin, Silver Spring

5~From the attic came an unearthly howl. The whole scene had an eerie, surreal quality, like when you're on vacation in another city and "Jeopardy" comes on at 7 p.m. instead of 7:30.
Roy Ashley, Washington

6~Her hair glistened in the rain like nose hair after a sneeze.
Chuck Smith, Woodbridge

7~Her eyes were like two brown circles with big black dots in the center.
Russell Beland, Springfield

8~Bob was as perplexed as a hacker who means to access T:flw.quid55328.com\aaakk/ch@ung but gets T:\flw.quidaaakk/ch@ung by mistake
Ken Krattenmaker, Landover Hills

9~Her vocabulary was as bad as, like, whatever.
Unknown

10~He was as tall as a six-foot-three-inch tree.
Jack Bross, Chevy Chase

11~The hailstones leaped from the pavement, just like maggots when you fry them in hot grease.
Gary F. Hevel, Silver Spring

12~Long separated by cruel fate, the star-crossed lovers raced across the grassy field toward each other like two freight trains, one having left Cleveland at 6:36 p.m. traveling at 55 mph, the other from Topeka at 4:19 p.m. at a speed of 35 mph.
Jennifer Hart, Arlington

13~The politician was gone but unnoticed, like the period after the Dr. on a Dr Pepper can.
Wayne Goode, Madison, Ala.

14~They lived in a typical suburban neighborhood with picket fences that resembled Nancy Kerrigan's teeth
Paul Kocak, Syracuse, N.Y.

15~John and Mary had never met. They were like two hummingbirds who had also never met.
Russell Beland, Springfield

16~The thunder was ominous-sounding, much like the sound of a thin sheet of metal being shaken backstage during the storm scene in a play.
Barbara Fetherolf, Alexandria

17~His thoughts tumbled in his head, making and breaking alliances like underpants in a dryer without Cling Free
Chuck Smith, Woodbridge



[Source: 'Sunday' - Daily Times (I think this is the name of the newspaper)]

Cheerio =)

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edition/ addition!
Hello every buddy!!!!
How are you guys?!?! Attending weddings and valimas? Ok, coming to the main thing. Today, I wanta share something with you. A little tip to tell you. Since, this is a shaadi season, all gals (and guys) please take care of your cute, little, clean feet. I hope you understand. Still, let me elaborate my point. I am trying to tell you something which has happened to me (almost zillion times), and now I, being a caring sister to you all, would advise you, that the next time you go to any such celebration/ party/ function/ please wear some heavy, high heeled, yet beautiful SHOES! Actually, that helps you in the best counterattack. Trust me! That day, I went to my mamoo's shaadi, and God, there wasn't a single person left who hadn't crushed my feet (keeping bride and groom aside). Now, I am seriously planning to wear my brother's DMS (Drill Marching Shoes). They are long, heavy, and best for retaliation. Hahaha...I don't care how I would look like, cuz all I care about are my fragile feet. You know what, when we were about to go back to homes, I looked at my feet, which were ruthlessly smashed and crushed beyond recognition. So now, DMS is the only thing left for me.
I hope Saady J and Asad are aware of what DMS are =)
*in search of my bro's DMS*
Cheerio!

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Praised are You who created the universe.

Thank You for giving me and my family life. Thank You
Dear Lord for creating such glorious beauty in this
world and thank You for giving me the ability to
appreciate Your creation.

Please My Almighty Lord, I humbly ask You to shine Your
love on me, my family and all people and may Your love
bring perfect holiness, perfect health and peace, peace
in my heart and soul, peace in my family, peace in my
nation, and peace in the entire world.

Please My Almighty Lord, help me to know my highest
purpose and to realize total success. Please grant me
wisdom in order to best serve You here on earth.

Please My Almighty Lord, forgive me for my
shortcomings in the past and help me to walk in Your
ways from this day forward.

Thank You My Almighty Lord for hearing my prayer and
for giving me and all life, holiness, perfect health,
peace, wisdom, success, and forgiveness.

Praise You My Lord who loves His creation and brings
peace, love and holiness to all life.

My Lord we beg you for forgiveness for all our sins, we
seek your guidence and help to make us better
in everyway.

May peace prevail on Earth.

Ameen.

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