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When and why?

Posted by Umema Siddiqi on Sunday, September 12, 2004 in
Assalam o alaikum readers,
I don't know for how many more weeks will I be enthralled by this 'examination tension period'. I am seriously fed up by this little, insipid chain of my courses - Business, Accounting, Economics, and (occasionally) G.P. Nothing else to do in life. But then, these four courses seem to me like strong walls which have enclosed me from almost every direction. I mean, I can't even see a ray of enjoyment. And even, if by chance, I get some time for enjoyment, the thought of these four courses prick me like four-hundred sharp needles and take away all the joy and happiness from me. I, who used to be a care free girl, have now suddenly turned into a tension
friendly student! Why? Why? Why? Why the coign of vantage has suddenly disappeared from me?The past few days have affected my life so much so that I dream of my exams, my awful prospective grades, only. I want to get out of this incubus. I don't know what to do. I haven't formulated any sort of timetable for my exams. This is because this CIE (Cambridge International Examination) people are testing our (especially my) patience. Why can't they just
reveal the dates? What is taking so long? Why, according to them, the end of Sept. is the most appropriate time to disclose the dates, when they even know that our exams start from the second week of Oct.? Uh..why? Why ain't my mind absorbing all the course work that I need to prepare? Why, after every 4 days, I am affected by this cough and sneeze virus? Why, because of this virus, I can't/don't study? When will this acidulous headache learn to stop aching and give me a few seconds of pure relaxation? When will things in my life start to get straight again? I don't know from when, all of a sudden, I have grown so helpless, so pessimistic? I know I will be able to get out of this traumatic situation soon, but again, when?

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